Its January 2, 2011. Another chapter in the book of life is complete, but there are several more to write. This time last year, I was exactly where I am now. Plotting, planning and at the same time..Scared, Excited, Anxious. So many aspects of my life have changed over the past year, but one thing remains the same. I am determined, focused and READY!!
So who am I:
- I am an eleven year veteran law enforcement officer
- I own/organize a women's social networking group
- I own a non-profit organization geared toward the empowerment of indigent girls.
- I am a AFAA certified personal trainer
- I am a National Level NPC figure athlete
My heart seems to skip a beat as I reflect on competing and the dedication to the diets and physical training it requires. The 2 hours of cardio/ five days a week, the five fish meals a day, the lugging of a gallon jug of water. Bad hair days, no make-up days, cranky and moodiness. The weekend training camps with my coaches. Oh, let me not forget, the constant questions and unsolicited opinions of my friends. In addition to my fresh faced teammates and facebook friends who are also my competition. I begin to look myself and wonder.. Am I ready? Am I small enough? Will SHE be the next pro? Is THAT the body they want to see? Will SHE beat me?..
So I ask myself, why do this to YOURSELF again. then there is a verse from my favorite song that comes to mind.
"In the warriors code
There's no surrender
Though his body says stop
His spirit cries - never!
Deep in our soul
A quiet ember
Know it's you against you
It's the paradox
That drives us on"
Not only is this song one of the most inspirational songs I have EVER heard, but it tends to speak of the heart and soul of a competitor. Or what I like to call myself, a warrior. Only those that compete, knows this drive. This drive never fades in the heart of a TRUE warrior. You might walk away, you may quit, but at some point, that fire ignites and you are back in the fight again. That's the heart of a true warrior, without some fiction, challenge or obstacle, the warrior simply dies.
PHOTOGRAPHY BY NED MATARASO